Pizza, September, Letting Go And Fond Memories

by Yvonne Chase on September 1, 2017

Stop What You’re Doing
Today, September 1, 2017, I am eating a slice of pizza in honor of my mother. One year ago today, I laid my hand on her chest and felt her last heartbeat. I had just moved all of my boxes into my new place and was getting settled when that still small voice said stop what you’re doing and go to the hospital now. I dropped everything, ran down the stairs then outside to flag a cab. 


Her Life Was Snatched
One visit to the emergency room four weeks prior left my mother with a surprising diagnosis that eventually took her life. She never went back home. That bothers me to this day. The way my mother died in my mind was evil. Her life was snatched from her. It bothers me terribly! She never got a chance to go back to the home she loved so much; to sit in her chair at the dining room table where she read the word, talked on the phone, did a crossword puzzle, wrote in her journal, ate meals, watched TV etc. 

Joi de Vivre
I shared this recently with my pastor and he asked, “Are you like your mother?” My response was, I am my mother; my personality, Joi de Vivre, resilience, strength, boldness, discernment…I laugh like her and whenever I open my mouth to sing alto, people think it’s her. He then asked if I look like my mother and I do. I have her slanty chinky eyes and her soft as a baby’s bottom skin. 

Fond Memories
Back to the pizza…A good slice of pizza was one of her favorite foods. As I enjoy a slice today in her honor, I have fond memories of taking her to the neighborhood pizza shop back in the day which I learned is temporarily closed because of a basement fire. While there were other pizza shops in the neighborhood, her favorite was Rocky’s. They loved her as much as she loved them. 

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Bring Us Joy
During her hospital stay, she craved pizza. On one of my visits, I remember getting her not one but two slices that day and her face lit up. Sometimes all we need are the little things in life like a slice of pizza to bring us joy.

Wounds And Trauma
I never realized how much I am my mother until she left this earth. That realization has changed how I live. Mom didn’t have the tools and the resources I have to deal with the wounds and trauma many of us experience in our childhood. Each of us is wounded in one way or another. I’ve gotten help in the past from counselors and pastors and I will continue to get help as I need it because…

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Let It Go
Holding on to life’s hurts eats away at us from the inside out. Cancer, autoimmune diseases, and other terminal illnesses show up in our body when we hold on to negativity. Some of it is hard to let go of, believe me, I know, but we must let it go for our own sake. In honor of my mother, I daily make a conscious effort to deal with the hard-knocks of life and let it go. Today, and every day I let go of what no longer serves me.

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How Would You Live
As I continued to talk to my pastor about my mother and all the events that happened prior to and up until her passing, I said to him, I wonder how each of us would live if we knew today was our last day on earth? How would you live? What would you do? What would you say? 

Something to think about…

What say you? Tell me one of your favorite foods. How are you living your life in light of death? 

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Sue Donaldson September 1, 2017

I love this. I love pizza and so did my mom. but mostly I love that you won’t let your past keep you in the past – such a great example to everyone. It’s such a waste of time,besides – too much good living and good pizza ahead. amen. will share.
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Yvonne Chase September 4, 2017

@Sue,

You’re so right. I have too much good living to do and way too much delicious pizza to eat. Life is short and can be snatched from us at any m0ment. I”m doing my best to forget what lies behind and press onward to receive all God has for me…
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Sue from Sizzling Towards 60 & Beyond September 1, 2017

I love pizza and I’m also a firm believer in letting go otherwise you will never find happiness. Thank you for sharing with us at #BloggersPitStop
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Yvonne Chase September 4, 2017

@Sue,

Letting go is a must. I once heard a pastor say, the closer the relationship, the deeper the hurt and the harder it is to let go. He’s right and that is why I’m so grateful I have access to tons of resources to help me along this journey.
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Lux G. September 2, 2017

Sorry to hear about your mom. I’m sure she’s a great woman. Life can be so unfair sometimes, huh?

Thanks for your honesty and wise words.

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Yvonne Chase September 4, 2017

@Lux,

Thank you. She was an amazing woman who is now in a much better place than us.
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Quwane William Watkins September 2, 2017

“BEAUTIFUL REMEMBRANCE” I loved it, very eloquently written!! Love how even when you got away for a little while, you went back to the slice of pizza, which was ya mommies favorite.

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Trina Taylor September 4, 2017

The way you honor your mother is quite admirable and your transparency about where you are with all of it is even more admirable.

I’ve had to let go of some tough stuff in life and can relate to your journey. I salute your strength. Keep keeping on.

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Yvonne Chase September 4, 2017

@Trina,

Thank you. I’m doing my best. All I can do is keep putting one foot in front of the other and not let others take me back to places I don’t want to go.

Bless you…
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